Terendap Laraku...

Resah Jiwaku menanti... mengingat semua yang terlewati,
saat kau masih ada disisi mendekapku dalam hangatnya cintamu,
Lambat sang waktu berganti, endapkan laraku disini... coba tuk lupakan bayangan dirimu yang selalu saja memaksa tuk merindumu...

Sekian lama aku mencoba menepikan diriku diredupnya hatiku..
letih menahan perih yang kurasakan walau kutau.. ku masih mendambamu...

Lihatlah aku disini melawan getirnya takdirku sendiri,
Tanpamu aku lemah dan tiada berarti...

Mimpi Kamu...

Semalem tu ada mimpi tentang kamu, hayo apa itu? gak rahasia sih, itu only ceritana sih, nonton gitu gak tau dey film apa itu. tapi ku ya, tanya kamu.. coz itu film looks like ga bagus2 amat, ku tanya kamu; "kenapa sih nonton itu film, kan gak bagus" trus kamu jawab aku "its not about the movie, but the main thing u watch the movie with me" gitu .. ah.. emang? kinda sweet answer . eh, tau itu kamu, looks like kinda real itu mimpi-na. emang sih gak ada something2 yng supa dupa special. tapi gpp, itu for me bagus mimpi-na coz aku mau watch d'movies with u.
kapan ya? bisa gak ya? gak tau deh.
kamu lagi otw atau udh sampe? hmm .. ya deh. met bobow . trus kangen aku ya...
duduw...

Being Pessimist is not a sin, but being Restless is Pathetic!

Well... try to connect em with three words; Pessimist, Restless and Pathetic. Somehow for me, those words are important, part of my life, sounds coward, am I? ah, not a coward its more likely "negative". It's okay.. everybody can choose their own way to fill up their life, so do I!! Yea, being pessimist; not only because I'm a big fan of Nietzsche but.. I think my life is not that simple to get a word called "Optimism". I'm still searching for it; even I'm not sure if I could find it. Doesn't matter-- at least I'm trying! better than nothing -- see; even only a little I have that optimist mind!
CLAPPING mode ON :)

... Why should I feel restless? is it because I'm not grateful enough with what I've got now? NO.. don't say that! I'm not that bad. I know that I don't deserve to reach the heaven's door; but its all about mind, feeling... isn't everybody always expecting to get the best thing in their life? again.. so do I!!
I had dreams; No.. I still do :) I'll never get tired of it. I'll find the way to get an answer of my dreams.. one day.. for sure. -- See I'm not restless!!
CLAPPING mode ON :)

Pathetic!!! just like being different, it is unique!
Ah, I'm still in my full consciousness; even its on the edge of the critical condition. Have you ever think about when you are in a critical condition its give you some values in life? something that you can't buy or get anytime; try to be positive in all aspects of life.. not easy.. but at least I'm trying; better than nothing!! Ah.. I just a normal person, like all of you. Trying to get the best thing in life.. everybody does that.. so do I!! all I need to do is; let ALLAH do the rest..and I'll try to do the best thing I can do... finally I realized that, I'm still having a "valid brain" to think clearly.. :D
CLAPPING mode ON :)

Heaven has its way, and I've seen the heaven in Your eyes...

Ya.. I've seen heaven in Your eyes, the sparks.. its reminding me of eternity, endless peaceful mind. I'm drowning inside!..

But my life its not gonna end because of it, I wish I could stop the world and turn back the time,release, erase and rewind.. all the things I had, all the feeling I keep till now. Ah, wish things would be easier, to say.. to do, to capture, to catch .. the answer is Impossible...

Heaven knows, I've seen heaven in Your eyes. My life ended that time, when I realized that I won't be able to swim on it. Just got drowned. My life ended, no answer why I should die that time? why I should stay alive? why I still keep looking at those spark? why I should keep expecting something which is actually never exist? Keep dreaming and Sailing in an endless world,... ah.. I'm getting insane!

I believe in dreams, even it sounds impossible to come true, it wont!! I know..
Either of being pessimist or a dreamer not a sin, but being restless is pathetic!!

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Red String Of Fate...

The red string of fate (Traditional Chinese: 紅線; Simplified Chinese: 紅线; Yale: hung4sin3; Pinyin: hóngxiàn), also referred to as the red thread of destiny, red thread of fate (and by other variants) is an East Asian belief originating from Chinese legend. According to this myth, the gods tie an invisible red string around the ankles of men and women who are destined to be soul mates and will one day marry each other. According to Chinese legend, the deity in charge of "the red thread" is believed to be Yuelao (月老), the old lunar matchmaker god who is also in charge of marriages.

"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet,
regardless of time, place, or circumstance.
The thread may stretch or tangle,
but it will never break." - an ancient Chinese belief

The two people connected by the red thread are said to be destined lovers, regardless of time, place or circumstances. It is said that this magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break. This myth is similar to the Western concept of soulmates or a twin flame.
The legend has since also become a popular myth in Japanese culture and other East Asian cultures.

I'm thinking about my dream...
long back.. was it has connection with it? anklet.. red string ....soul mate?

Ku menangis,
Mimpi itu datang lagi...
-seseorang- yang jauh disana masih nantikan aku,
I'm getting desperate!! I'm getting restless!!
No hope!!
-- buat "seseorang" disana...
entah dimana... yang nantikan ku selalu; maafkan aku!


I miss you - where are you now??
I miss you - where have you gone??
I miss you - waiting my whole life for you...
I miss you - but I never met you yet!!!

I miss you - I believe in dreams
I miss you - I believe in you
I miss you - wouldn't even recognize
I miss you - but I never met you yet!!!