Being Pessimist is not a sin, but being Restless is Pathetic!

Well... try to connect em with three words; Pessimist, Restless and Pathetic. Somehow for me, those words are important, part of my life, sounds coward, am I? ah, not a coward its more likely "negative". It's okay.. everybody can choose their own way to fill up their life, so do I!! Yea, being pessimist; not only because I'm a big fan of Nietzsche but.. I think my life is not that simple to get a word called "Optimism". I'm still searching for it; even I'm not sure if I could find it. Doesn't matter-- at least I'm trying! better than nothing -- see; even only a little I have that optimist mind!
CLAPPING mode ON :)

... Why should I feel restless? is it because I'm not grateful enough with what I've got now? NO.. don't say that! I'm not that bad. I know that I don't deserve to reach the heaven's door; but its all about mind, feeling... isn't everybody always expecting to get the best thing in their life? again.. so do I!!
I had dreams; No.. I still do :) I'll never get tired of it. I'll find the way to get an answer of my dreams.. one day.. for sure. -- See I'm not restless!!
CLAPPING mode ON :)

Pathetic!!! just like being different, it is unique!
Ah, I'm still in my full consciousness; even its on the edge of the critical condition. Have you ever think about when you are in a critical condition its give you some values in life? something that you can't buy or get anytime; try to be positive in all aspects of life.. not easy.. but at least I'm trying; better than nothing!! Ah.. I just a normal person, like all of you. Trying to get the best thing in life.. everybody does that.. so do I!! all I need to do is; let ALLAH do the rest..and I'll try to do the best thing I can do... finally I realized that, I'm still having a "valid brain" to think clearly.. :D
CLAPPING mode ON :)