Ku menangis,
Mimpi itu datang lagi...
-seseorang- yang jauh disana masih nantikan aku,
I'm getting desperate!! I'm getting restless!!
No hope!!
-- buat "seseorang" disana...
entah dimana... yang nantikan ku selalu; maafkan aku!


I miss you - where are you now??
I miss you - where have you gone??
I miss you - waiting my whole life for you...
I miss you - but I never met you yet!!!

I miss you - I believe in dreams
I miss you - I believe in you
I miss you - wouldn't even recognize
I miss you - but I never met you yet!!!

-KRIBO-

RAMBUT GUE KRIBO!!!!


Tiga minggu lalu itu tgl. 31 May kalo gak salah, kan sempet gue nge- BRAIDS rambut gue, sumpew deh.. itu pas proses belangsung,.. gue sempet tekaing-kaing karena rambut gue dijambakin sama itu 2 ladies di tukang salon itu.. weqeqeqeqeq.. kalo gue bisa sumpah serapah; pasti gue ucapkan, coba deh elu bayangin.. udah bayar. mahal pula.. sekitar 350 ribuan itu bikin rambut gue "ALA BOB MARLEY-- JAMAICAN STYLE" eh ya ditarik2in.. buseeet, no comment deh... gue tapi asli setuju banget sama pendapat orang2.. katanya sih; frankly speaking, saat itu 2 ladies were pulling my hairs, damn!! thats the only thing came in my mind... NO PAIN NO GAIN , gue itu tahan2 dengan rambut BRAIDS gue selama 2 minggu, yang rencana awal mo ditahan selama sebulan, tapi tau lu.. ternyata.. baru dua minggu rambut gue ngadat.. pada patah2, wedewww.. ini bukan goyangan PATAH-PATAH yang kata orang2 sih seksi (seronok? ufffff....) ini.. rambut gue terlihat mengenaskan.. dengan berat hati.. ku lupakan itu semua keinginan pertahanin braids sampe sebulan, luluh lantak lah liat rambut begitu.. (dari awal kan emang udah gue males miara2 rambut kadang2 itu namanya nyisir kok ya, seperti beban bangets deh!!)
-- Anyway!!! sudahlah.. lupakan saja.. itu gue lepas braidsnya,... yang ada itu tanggal 14 June berawal-lah RAMBUT KRIBO GUE lumayan seksi sih.. mirip si SUKETI, kuntilance di film horror jaman kuda MALEM SATU SURO ehehehe... tapiiiii, tau kah kamu? itu rambut hanya bertahan beberapa hari saja, karena.. ternyata, setelah 3 kali keramas.. rambut lurus lempes gue rus rus pes pes.. balik lagi.. weqeqeqeqqe... yaah, again SUDAHLAH... kembali ke asal.. tak mengapa, itu hanya pengalaman.. berpenampilan beda, sekali2 itu perlu... biar jadi instant booster.. sumpewww gue emang butuh itu .. jiwa gue kok ya merana bener akhir2 ini.. NELANGSA!!! hiks5 pengen nangis bombay.. tapi gak bisa.. gak ngerti juga apa yang mo di tangisin.. anyway... by the way... subway. ehehe NO WAY.. apaaa sih.. mood gue lebih baik sekarang, mungkin karena "bawaan" RAMBUT KRIBO.. gapapa, gamama (apa siiihh?!! duh, kok jadi inget bubu?!.. huhuhuu...) anyway.. itu pengalaman per eksperimen rambut, sudah gue jalanin.. gue lagi browsing2 lagi.. kira2 bakal rambut model apa lagikah yang bisa gue tiruuu nih.. aw.. I NEVER LEARN!!! huhuuhuh

Colouring your hair: At home vs at the salon

A fresh colour can be the ultimate pick-me-up, and a way of signalling a new phase in your life. You need to decide if you want to do it yourself at home, or go to a salon to have it professionally done. There are pros and cons for each - here is a guide to colouring at home versus going to a hairdresser.

If your hair is dark and you only want a slight change - say, a hint of auburn - then there is no reason why you can't do it yourself. Home hair colourants are quite sophisticated these days, and you'll achieve good results from either a semi-permanent or a permanent dye. Just make sure you choose a reputable brand, for example L'oreal or Garnier, and follow the instructions to the letter.

If, however, you desire a big change - like going from dark brown to blonde - then you're far better off going to a salon. Going blonde at home is not recommended as any number of things can go wrong, including getting a brassy yellow colour instead of the natural-looking shade you wanted. Hairdressers rarely get it wrong - most have been colouring clients' hair on a daily basis for years - and they'll give you a far greater choice of colours and colouring techniques than what you would get with a home hair colourant.

If your hair is blonde and you desire a change to brunette, then it's also best to go to a salon, as a toner will need to be applied to your hair before colouring, to avoid a green look.

Also, if you want streaks or highlights, then it's also best to get them professionally done. You can buy streaking kits for home use but they can be tricky to use, especially if you don't have a friend on hand to help. You're far better off being in a relaxing environment where it's guaranteed to be done right, even if you do have to pay more.

So unless the change you want to make is minimal, and only a few shades different to your current colour, then it's recommended that you get yourself to a salon. It's more expensive than doing it at home, but for peace of mind and getting the look you desire, it's worth it.

Three Dots (...)

...

I'm trying to forget and be positive with whats happening now, I don't like it, but I can't do anything much; my self destruction keep screaming and pushing me to come out from this confusion.
Is it called dilemma? should I keep carry on like this; with all of my doubt.. and continue my dreams or should I simply ignoring my feeling and think that it never happen?
I think I never learn... for anything; am I stubborn? am I dumb? I just want to get one smile; everlasting one.. am I deserve it?
I'm dreaming about my death... I'm drowning... I think its my wild imagination that bring me to my half death and life... I'm lost in between;
...

Day by day.. my doubt getting higher...
-- something else.. aku gak bisa sepenuhnya tau, apa yang kamu mau... keep talking in riddles .. I can't figure it out!! saat ini, ragu itu makin menguat, not my mistake if I keep carry on like this... sikap-mu bawa aku jauh; to the middle of nowhere....
I don't know till when... endless??

Notice me, take my hand. Why are we strangers when our love is strong?
Why carry on without me?

Every time I try to fly, I fall; without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, ...
And every time I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, ...

I make believe that you are here...It's the only way I see clear
What have I done you seem to move on easy. I may have made it rain;
Please forgive me...my weakness caused you pain...


-------------------I need to survive... so stay with me, please?-------------


At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

Mi Pasión ...

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If I remember; far, far away the future shines into forever
Beneath the beautiful blue sky, we were frightened, but only a little,
In nostalgic colors, a window is stained...
To turn behind, can we meet again the future continues into forever?
Beneath this huge billboard, I want to see the fading of this time
To those never met again, somewhere???!!! open a window..


Si mal no recuerdo - lejos, muy lejos del futuro brilla para siempre en
Bajo el hermoso cielo azul, que estaban durmiendo, eternamente ...

;
Hari ini tanggal 5 June, saat 11:21pm.. dentangnya jam dinding itu jelas ku dengar, kadang datang.. kadang pergi.. seperti detak jantungku,.. ahh.. ku masih hidup disini.. bernafas pasti, and yea.. still waiting for a miracle to come... damn, stupid me.. !!! apa ini, kegilaan apa yang kunantikan? "Do not mistake coincidence for fate"... I'm trying to believe it.. but HELL.. "bullshit" macam apa itu??, Mi Pasión? do I have one? or I have too many.. jiwaku sakit.. bukan.. tidak hanya itu... sakit jiwaku..

--- My Reality... all good things come to an end?

Honestly what will become of me don't like reality
It's way too clear to me but really life is dandy
We are what we don't see missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust ....lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end???
Traveling; I only stop at exits wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies the pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why.....
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon and the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away and the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation...
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die....



**** My suicidal dream... I think you gonna take me away with you one day... to unreachable place... beyond the reality ???.....