Being Pessimist is not a sin, but being Restless is Pathetic!

Well... try to connect em with three words; Pessimist, Restless and Pathetic. Somehow for me, those words are important, part of my life, sounds coward, am I? ah, not a coward its more likely "negative". It's okay.. everybody can choose their own way to fill up their life, so do I!! Yea, being pessimist; not only because I'm a big fan of Nietzsche but.. I think my life is not that simple to get a word called "Optimism". I'm still searching for it; even I'm not sure if I could find it. Doesn't matter-- at least I'm trying! better than nothing -- see; even only a little I have that optimist mind!
CLAPPING mode ON :)

... Why should I feel restless? is it because I'm not grateful enough with what I've got now? NO.. don't say that! I'm not that bad. I know that I don't deserve to reach the heaven's door; but its all about mind, feeling... isn't everybody always expecting to get the best thing in their life? again.. so do I!!
I had dreams; No.. I still do :) I'll never get tired of it. I'll find the way to get an answer of my dreams.. one day.. for sure. -- See I'm not restless!!
CLAPPING mode ON :)

Pathetic!!! just like being different, it is unique!
Ah, I'm still in my full consciousness; even its on the edge of the critical condition. Have you ever think about when you are in a critical condition its give you some values in life? something that you can't buy or get anytime; try to be positive in all aspects of life.. not easy.. but at least I'm trying; better than nothing!! Ah.. I just a normal person, like all of you. Trying to get the best thing in life.. everybody does that.. so do I!! all I need to do is; let ALLAH do the rest..and I'll try to do the best thing I can do... finally I realized that, I'm still having a "valid brain" to think clearly.. :D
CLAPPING mode ON :)

Heaven has its way, and I've seen the heaven in Your eyes...

Ya.. I've seen heaven in Your eyes, the sparks.. its reminding me of eternity, endless peaceful mind. I'm drowning inside!..

But my life its not gonna end because of it, I wish I could stop the world and turn back the time,release, erase and rewind.. all the things I had, all the feeling I keep till now. Ah, wish things would be easier, to say.. to do, to capture, to catch .. the answer is Impossible...

Heaven knows, I've seen heaven in Your eyes. My life ended that time, when I realized that I won't be able to swim on it. Just got drowned. My life ended, no answer why I should die that time? why I should stay alive? why I still keep looking at those spark? why I should keep expecting something which is actually never exist? Keep dreaming and Sailing in an endless world,... ah.. I'm getting insane!

I believe in dreams, even it sounds impossible to come true, it wont!! I know..
Either of being pessimist or a dreamer not a sin, but being restless is pathetic!!

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~~ Cinta, dimana kamu saat ini? sedang apakah dirimu "disana"? kangen aku?
ku mau cerita2 denganmu.. mau curhat2ku.. tapi gak bisa.. aku .. rindukan kamu saat ini... cepat pulang.. temani aku lagi.

Red String Of Fate...

The red string of fate (Traditional Chinese: 紅線; Simplified Chinese: 紅线; Yale: hung4sin3; Pinyin: hóngxiàn), also referred to as the red thread of destiny, red thread of fate (and by other variants) is an East Asian belief originating from Chinese legend. According to this myth, the gods tie an invisible red string around the ankles of men and women who are destined to be soul mates and will one day marry each other. According to Chinese legend, the deity in charge of "the red thread" is believed to be Yuelao (月老), the old lunar matchmaker god who is also in charge of marriages.

"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet,
regardless of time, place, or circumstance.
The thread may stretch or tangle,
but it will never break." - an ancient Chinese belief

The two people connected by the red thread are said to be destined lovers, regardless of time, place or circumstances. It is said that this magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break. This myth is similar to the Western concept of soulmates or a twin flame.
The legend has since also become a popular myth in Japanese culture and other East Asian cultures.

I'm thinking about my dream...
long back.. was it has connection with it? anklet.. red string ....soul mate?

Ku menangis,
Mimpi itu datang lagi...
-seseorang- yang jauh disana masih nantikan aku,
I'm getting desperate!! I'm getting restless!!
No hope!!
-- buat "seseorang" disana...
entah dimana... yang nantikan ku selalu; maafkan aku!


I miss you - where are you now??
I miss you - where have you gone??
I miss you - waiting my whole life for you...
I miss you - but I never met you yet!!!

I miss you - I believe in dreams
I miss you - I believe in you
I miss you - wouldn't even recognize
I miss you - but I never met you yet!!!

-KRIBO-

RAMBUT GUE KRIBO!!!!


Tiga minggu lalu itu tgl. 31 May kalo gak salah, kan sempet gue nge- BRAIDS rambut gue, sumpew deh.. itu pas proses belangsung,.. gue sempet tekaing-kaing karena rambut gue dijambakin sama itu 2 ladies di tukang salon itu.. weqeqeqeqeq.. kalo gue bisa sumpah serapah; pasti gue ucapkan, coba deh elu bayangin.. udah bayar. mahal pula.. sekitar 350 ribuan itu bikin rambut gue "ALA BOB MARLEY-- JAMAICAN STYLE" eh ya ditarik2in.. buseeet, no comment deh... gue tapi asli setuju banget sama pendapat orang2.. katanya sih; frankly speaking, saat itu 2 ladies were pulling my hairs, damn!! thats the only thing came in my mind... NO PAIN NO GAIN , gue itu tahan2 dengan rambut BRAIDS gue selama 2 minggu, yang rencana awal mo ditahan selama sebulan, tapi tau lu.. ternyata.. baru dua minggu rambut gue ngadat.. pada patah2, wedewww.. ini bukan goyangan PATAH-PATAH yang kata orang2 sih seksi (seronok? ufffff....) ini.. rambut gue terlihat mengenaskan.. dengan berat hati.. ku lupakan itu semua keinginan pertahanin braids sampe sebulan, luluh lantak lah liat rambut begitu.. (dari awal kan emang udah gue males miara2 rambut kadang2 itu namanya nyisir kok ya, seperti beban bangets deh!!)
-- Anyway!!! sudahlah.. lupakan saja.. itu gue lepas braidsnya,... yang ada itu tanggal 14 June berawal-lah RAMBUT KRIBO GUE lumayan seksi sih.. mirip si SUKETI, kuntilance di film horror jaman kuda MALEM SATU SURO ehehehe... tapiiiii, tau kah kamu? itu rambut hanya bertahan beberapa hari saja, karena.. ternyata, setelah 3 kali keramas.. rambut lurus lempes gue rus rus pes pes.. balik lagi.. weqeqeqeqqe... yaah, again SUDAHLAH... kembali ke asal.. tak mengapa, itu hanya pengalaman.. berpenampilan beda, sekali2 itu perlu... biar jadi instant booster.. sumpewww gue emang butuh itu .. jiwa gue kok ya merana bener akhir2 ini.. NELANGSA!!! hiks5 pengen nangis bombay.. tapi gak bisa.. gak ngerti juga apa yang mo di tangisin.. anyway... by the way... subway. ehehe NO WAY.. apaaa sih.. mood gue lebih baik sekarang, mungkin karena "bawaan" RAMBUT KRIBO.. gapapa, gamama (apa siiihh?!! duh, kok jadi inget bubu?!.. huhuhuu...) anyway.. itu pengalaman per eksperimen rambut, sudah gue jalanin.. gue lagi browsing2 lagi.. kira2 bakal rambut model apa lagikah yang bisa gue tiruuu nih.. aw.. I NEVER LEARN!!! huhuuhuh

Colouring your hair: At home vs at the salon

A fresh colour can be the ultimate pick-me-up, and a way of signalling a new phase in your life. You need to decide if you want to do it yourself at home, or go to a salon to have it professionally done. There are pros and cons for each - here is a guide to colouring at home versus going to a hairdresser.

If your hair is dark and you only want a slight change - say, a hint of auburn - then there is no reason why you can't do it yourself. Home hair colourants are quite sophisticated these days, and you'll achieve good results from either a semi-permanent or a permanent dye. Just make sure you choose a reputable brand, for example L'oreal or Garnier, and follow the instructions to the letter.

If, however, you desire a big change - like going from dark brown to blonde - then you're far better off going to a salon. Going blonde at home is not recommended as any number of things can go wrong, including getting a brassy yellow colour instead of the natural-looking shade you wanted. Hairdressers rarely get it wrong - most have been colouring clients' hair on a daily basis for years - and they'll give you a far greater choice of colours and colouring techniques than what you would get with a home hair colourant.

If your hair is blonde and you desire a change to brunette, then it's also best to go to a salon, as a toner will need to be applied to your hair before colouring, to avoid a green look.

Also, if you want streaks or highlights, then it's also best to get them professionally done. You can buy streaking kits for home use but they can be tricky to use, especially if you don't have a friend on hand to help. You're far better off being in a relaxing environment where it's guaranteed to be done right, even if you do have to pay more.

So unless the change you want to make is minimal, and only a few shades different to your current colour, then it's recommended that you get yourself to a salon. It's more expensive than doing it at home, but for peace of mind and getting the look you desire, it's worth it.