What is today? 22nd December...is it special day ?
Probably..I have no "particular" reason for it,
I hate today as well... as I'm "willing" to "bargain" my feeling and emotion..
after long "contradiction" inside my mind... finally nothing happened... since 12am till now 12:16pm.. I have no clue what should I do...
It's feels like..... big question mark in mind..keep asking over and over again, can I survive for longer time? with this kind of emotion sickness looks like taking me to the
hell's door....
Why should I bother with TODAY, 22nd December...
after few years past, after I realized... nothing will work out.. after I convinced my self.. everything just my dreams...

" I tied my self with one promise, that I know that I can't keep"
is it fair to just let go my promise and those dreams?
If everything so simple, I should have throw those bullshit to the dustbin, burn it...

It's too sad to be true... but...

Simply.....

I can't let it go....


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It is an imperfect story,...
It is an endless journey...
It is an unforgivable sin...
but...
Is it wrong to have a dream? I couldn't ask for more....
only one dream....
even I know it's impossible to come true...
Let me stay with my dream...
as only with it I can survive till today....